He Ain't Easy People, He Ain't Easy

[Sherba] I’m a very casual person, laid back, in the way I dress and my nature. My father hates the way I dress sometimes, even though I think he has come to terms with it.

He used to complain about my hair and I would burst out laughing, because the look on his face was so funny. He did it because he cared. Every time I see him I can see him scanning what I am wearing. He does it because he loves me. So I know he is concerned for me, but the lack of concern he has for my concern for him is soooo trying.

My father has retired to the Caribbean and a few times a year, in the warmer months of the U.S., he comes to visit. He never calls ahead of time to tell me or my brother when he is coming, he just comes. He was here earlier this year and did not call me. When I saw him I said “How long have you been here?” He replies “Since Saturday.” People, that means he was here for 2 days without calling to let me know.

Recently I had been trying to call him in the Caribbean as well as e-mail and he did not answer for a while until I received an e-mail with his sentence not finished, which had me very concerned. I sent an e-mail again, my brother sent an e-mail, and I called both his numbers, no reply. He then called, only because somebody who knows somebody in his town told him I had been trying to contact him. Now can you imagine if I did these things, pleeeese he would be beside himself worrying. He lives on 4 acres, usually by himself, in the boonies. He’s driving me crazy.

I love my father but it feels to me as if he’s acting like he's my teenager and he’s 70! All I say is, give me strength, Lord, give me strength.